Today you would of been turning 12, where has the time gone ay?

I can't believe it was 12 years ago that I gave birth to such amazing sleeping angel, 12 years since I held you and kissed you goodbye.. 

It just don't seem possible it's been that long! I really struggled today to keep myself from crying but looks like I've been defeated and started to, I miss you beyond words can say. Why did it have to be you? Why did I have to lose my gorgeous baby boy?

Life is so unfair, I often think what you would of looked liked, would you have my personality or your dad's? Would you look like your brother Talen.. 

I guess all these questions I want answered will never be answered as your not here with me I know people say it gets easier in time but I can safely say it NOT getting any easier knowing I can't hold my baby boy 😭 xx